Feeling Contemplative

As I sit between the end of a job that has brought deep meaning and purpose to my professional life and the beginning of a job that I will mold into the functions notably necessary, I contemplate the last three and a half years of my life. It has been a time for maturing into a more compassionate life being. It has shown me how many people truly live day to day in surroundings that don't meet the standards acceptable for my life and substandard to society's superficial picture. It has made me thankful for the gifts I have been given by God, first and foremost, a loving family led by my parents whose example continues keeping me grounded in my Christian roots and on the relationships with my fellow humans which define my very being.

I'm thankful for the leadership and insight given me by the women I work with whose primary purpose is to further the lives of individuals with developmental disabilities without placing judgement or extending our personal values. As it has been with all of the jobs I've ever taken, I feel very called to serve in an administrative role that I hope can bring some more order to the chaos I call my life. As I see it now, I need a position that allows me to leave my work at the office and separate home time from work. The two have become intertwined lately and I don't feel my time's been appropriately allocated to my family. I so look forward to being able to complete a job without having document what it was I did to really be finished. The documentation has become the boon of the position.

While writing is a passion of mine, regurgitating scenarios from every minute of my days has become an overwhelming burden and one that I understand the value of the exercise. I'm reminded that while we're not solely in control of the wheel of life, we are definitely steering it and have the incredible blessing to make 180 degree turns when things become out of balance. That is what had happened for me. I pray that my driving leads me to more home time allowing our family to return to being the road I'm focused on for now.